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2007-07-07T00:25:00.000+08:00

omg

2007-07-04T09:07:00.000+08:00

omg sorry my beloved blog for abandoning you like ages (months lah!) =D

okay decided to steal from audrey's blog some quizzes (evil smile). come, with a parang, i not scared =DDD =x

kayss here you go:

Who was (were) the last person(s) you hung out with?
Ermzzz, my cell group members. so-called hung out with them in changi airport's burger king after church. =.=

Who was (were) the last person(s) you rode in a car with?
My father, sending me to school. =D

Who was (were) the last person(s) you went to the movies with?
Ermzz~ if i'm not mistaken : My cousin and his parents, watching Just Follow Law, the superbly funny show

Who was (were) the last person(s) you went to the mall with?
yvette. but didn't really shop, just because we were both going to jurong point. just went to popular and searched for my geog wb BUT NO STOCK. GRRR
a more decent shopping in the mall was before that, with FRUITFLY (songboon), PAPAYA (dreys), BANANA (puikay), and ~UNFRUITED~ (=.=") (brenda). was fun playing in the wading pool lols~

Who was (were) the last person(s) that made you laugh?
Allen. he was giving me a look when i placed my bag and coat against the printer. LOLS~ <<>

Who was (were) the last person(s) you cried about?

ME. was very sad (dunno why) maybe cuz i have low self-esteem.

... you cried for?

(private) then second-last i think it's the class. bah don wan talk about that.

Who was (were) the last person(s) you texted?

dreys! she was omg-ing to me by sms and told me that she saw weikiat on her way to school and he stared at her. LOL~ then i replied to her that weikiat for no reason is just interested in my close friends. bah (weikiat, how come arh if u see this. LOL~)

What was (were) the last thing(s) you commented about?

CAMPUS SUPERSTAR 2 LAHS! puikay smsed me that fukuan was out. i was like huh?-feeling. then in said. CSS2 THIS YEAR IS JUST WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD.

Who was (were) the person you hugged?

lingwei. that gayish guy tried to hug me and did =( LOL NO SELF-DEFENCE bahs.

Who do you like?

i seriously cannot think of anyone that i like in terms of bgr. BUT I LIKE (LOVE) MY FRIENDS~ CAN?

Sun / Moon ?

moonMOON! i'll be scalded to death if i like sun? =.= but i'll be freezed to death if i like moon? bahs i am crapping. but i like moon maybe cuz it lies in some of my memories? - my mum once told me that pointing the moon would cause my ear to drop. AND NOW, for no reason i still check my ear upon pointing the moon. i am crazy LOL~

Winter / Fall ?

WINTER! I LIKE TO BE COLD =D

10 acquaintances / 2 best friends?

i dun have 2 best friends. i have a bit more besties like boonboon (heehee), dreys, twilight etc. so i'll choose 10 acquaintances, hey but i have more than 10 acquaintances? WAIT, I DUN GET IT. U MEAN WHICH ONE I WANT? I WANT 2 BESTIES! =.=

Sunny / Rainy ?

rainy! i like to cold i toldya

and i am a sleepy pig log - so i like rainy weather when i sleep~ Hehes

Vanilla / Chocolate Ice-Cream?

i'd prefer chocolate ice-cream. it's my all-time favourite since young.

What time is it currently?

10.27 pm

What is my first name?

Jeremy

Where do you want to live?

Japan. but upon consideration of its standard of living, i thought i wanna live in somewhere else. but - japan, currently. preferably tokyo!

How many kids do you want?

i think i'd like only one. (and my parents at that time would say, "zi sun man tang ah!!" =.= "wo yao bao sun zi neh!" =.= LOL!) cuz its pressurizing for both parents and the children to share love for them equally. i mean its difficult isn't it? one will complain and one will be satisfied. then parents are the one who are quite troubled in the end. bahs why m i talking so much about this.

hey, why not ZERO ? LOL~

What would you name him/her (them)?

ERM~ =.= for male, Adam? for female, Eve? LOL! jkjk I DUNNO LAHS. but i would name a biblical name or a progression of them. means christian names. like Adam, Daniel whatever lahs.

When do you want to get married?

i don't think i wanna get married after 30 years old.

hey, why not BE SINGLE FOR LIFE ? oops. LOL!

Have you ever eaten spam?

Nopezz. i know the americans knew spam first by the food, not by meaning of "junk email". but i knew the word "spam" first by the meaning of junk mail in the inbox. and i.hate.it. esp CHAIN MAILS, SO STOP SENDING ME CHAIN MAILS. BEG BEG BEG

What is your favourite ice-cream?

Raspberry. then second - Chocolate Mint.

How many kinds of cereals are there in your cabinet?

I think i only have one, my mother bought. bahs. i dun like cereal. its just. bahs, i dun like to eat it anw.

Do you cook?

eh... cook? erm i think i'll leave a mess though. but, i forgot how to turn on a stove lehs. the stove in the home econs room of my school is different from my home's one. AHH.

Current mood?

kinda hyper? but dunno why i wanna be emo. =.="" but i am always slacking nowadays. trying to escape reality. dun wanna face the music. =((

Have you kissed someone in the last 48 hours?

Nope~ i used to kiss my parents everytime before i go to sleep. but now the culture's gone. bah, the gap btwn parents and us in teens. =D

Have you prayed in the last 48 hours?

yes, for today to be a blessed day.

Have you been hugged in the last 48 hours?

yeah, toldya. by that nth-to-say guy lingwei.

Have you felt stupid in the last 48 hours?

YES, dunno why. think i feel stupid 24/7 - like audrey. dreys - hi5!!! =.=

Have you missed someone in the last 48 hours?

nopes~ but i miss my past 24/7.

Have you danced crazily in the last 48 hours?

YEAH, LOL along with the stupid song played in the chinese ke wen cd. then i was like almost let the whole class see sia. was too hyper. paisehs~ U KNOW THOSE VERY STUPID SONGS PLAYED CHINESE LISTENIKNG COMPREHENSION CD, ITS LIKE THAT KIND LAH. TEMPTED ME TO MAKE ME DANCES STUPIDLY. LOL! I AM STUPID WHAHHAASSS

Have you cried in the last 48 hours?

nope. but my heart cries 24/7. =(

Have you lied in the last 48 hours?

i can't think~ i think i did, seems like i did. I DUNNO =X I JUST FORGOT.

Have you ever been searched by the police?

nopes. HEY POLICE ARREST ME I AM SADDAM HUSSEIN. WOO I AM NOT DEAD. BUT I'LL BE WHEN I AM IN JAIL. =DDDDDD =.="

saddam hussein de english got so good mehs. if this is saddam hussein u'll be seeing the scrollar on the left liaos. (arabic pages have scrollbars on the left since they read from r to l)

Do you have a dog?

NOPE, i'd like a cat. but i ain't prepared for a pet.

When was the last time you went sleding?

What's sleding?

Would you rather sleep with someone else, or sleep alone?

alone.

Do you believe in ghosts?

i think i do. Holy Spirit? yeah i believe in that. but, i think.. ERM NVM

YAY MORE GOOD RESULTS WOOTS!

2007-05-15T13:33:00.000+08:00

omg~ i just can't believe this..

btw i am posting this from school hahas

guess what, i got the highest for literature!! 35/40! (87.5%) OMG can't believe this ... but there is still the other one who shared the same marks with me too (omg.. before i was about to type that sentence that person who shared the same marks coincidentally passed me by.. wasn't that amazing? fine lame!)

i also got my chinese results....
paper 1 (letter-writing): content 6.5/10 (65%); structure 9/10 (90%), total 15.5/20 (77.5%)
paper 1 (essay-writing): content 26/35 (74.3%); structure 26/35 (74.3%), total 52/70 (74.3%)
paper 2: 64/110 (58.2%)
grand total: 131.5/200 (65.8%)

yays! =D fine there's a lot of boys crowding around me =.=" so i think i better stop here.. I STILL GOT MY PRIVACY RIGHTS?! FINE LOL

BYEBYE~

WOOTS

2007-05-14T20:27:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!

okay that's just an overreaction~ MY RESULTS WOOTS!! WOOTS WOOTS!!

i got my maths lerh woots!

paper 1: 49/60 (81.7%)
paper 2: 48/60 (80.0%)
total: 97/120 (80.8%)

TEN CHEERS FOR JEREMY TENG!!! diao =.=" kk

then for science OMG THIS IS LIKE SO SHOCKING LAHS.. PRIMARY SCIENCE IS LIKE SO SIAO LIAO LORHS ALWAYS CANNT DO WELL.. this was how it went when my teacher was explaining the results~~~

she was naming a few students' results who'd left her an impression. but she couldn't give her our papers cuz there was one student who was absent on the day of test (kinda impatient lerhz hahas) and WOOTS THE HIGHEST WAS A BOY!!!!!! THIS IS LIKE SOOOOOO NICE LAHS.. WOOTS WEI4 NAN2 REN2 ZHENG1 GUANG1 LEHS!! 为男人争光 LOL.. btw, the girls have been winning the boys lahs, so we bushuang mahs. LOL! then aiya, i was thinking i couldn't be getting good results for it.. i told ya in my prev blog if m not wrong i didn't finish my paper too... so while wishing so much for da tchr to mention my name, i was rebuking myself in my heart for being too naive and overconfident.. hahas but OMG LAHS, suddenly the teacher looked at me and mentioned my name

and yes, Jeremy... his section b answers, woah very long...
(at this point i thought da tchr was being sarcastic, cuz very long ans doesnt reap good results too mah, but YAY carryon)
and DETAILED
(wow!!!!!!! I CANT BELIEVE THIS LAHS! LOL! that time i very paiseh already, face red oredi, almost trying to cover my face)
one student asks, "very long-winded and lohsoh right?"
(i was almost quite angry at this point, but just for fun cuz this time he was the one who is being sarcastic hahahas)
NO, TO THE POINT!
(oh! at that point of time i felt a sense of protection and defence from my teacher against that sarcasm from that student! LOL!!!!! OMG TO THE PT LEHS!!! I AM SO AMAZED~)

science MCQ: 28/30 (93.3%)

YAY!!!!! i can't believe this luh, for science!! hey if mrs ansar knows that, will she be praising me, or she would saying "nahhhhh~ its just the syllabus change!" LOL okay lah actually honestly i think its cuz of syllabus change i did quite well for science =D YAY

HUNDRED CHEERS FOR GOD!! WOOTS! (fine, wouldnt be enuf)

eww.. i've been kinda thick skinned around here... have been singing my own praises. shameless!

erm what more have i got to say?

woahlau today got this essay competition and the teacher always like to tell us about this and that last minute one.. den we havent even get redi for it.. and no need to say, i didnt finish it~

ok ok got to buy dinner to eat~

AND OMG I ALMOST FORGOT TO TALK ABOUT THE NEW SKIN LOL!!

okay fine, it is actually for my cell group songsheet derh... but i felt that its quite nice to be in a blogskin... so i used it lorhs. in total i used about 5 hrs to finish (3 hrs to finish the comic and 2 hrs to finish the remaining design and codes)

ok fine fine i gtg.. gonna continue later perhaps~ =D

pathetic~

2007-05-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

i trusted them as friends...

guess what - last time, i always felt that there is no need to put the word "true" before the word "friend" unless in the circumstances of emphasis.

i always thought "true" would be a redundant word before the word "friend" because i naively and always thought friends are understood for being true.

but now, they proved my theory of friends wrong, sadly and disappointedly.

i trusted them as friends.
i definitely knew how possible it could be for something to go wrong in friendship,
but i never thought that such will happen.
but how naively i thought,
never did i expect that they would actually do such a thing all behind my back.

wouldn't you guys accept me for who i am? is it really that difficult?

primary school, i've been experiencing it. secondary school, i didn't expect it. for 3 years i've experienced it, i thought i could get over it and ignore it in secondary school. but i couldn't.

is accepting repetitive insults something that humans should learn? because, everything's been too cruel..

forget it - i shall accept it.
let them stereotype guys who like to talk to girls a sissy.

perhaps it's not their fault. its just the overreaction on my part, isn't it?

i am not rebuking or blaming them, rather - i am rebuking and blaming myself
- for being so stupid and such a pushover and so soft-hearted and so idiotic and so... w/e

they didn't disappoint me, rather - it is me who have disappointed myself
- for being so gullible to such a topic called friendship and yet hurt myself.

PATHETIC isn't it?

i've hurt myself by doing what reaps it.

thus, its not anyone but my fault.

if you feel guilty, dun bother to apologise to me... if u feel guilty, get over it for it is totally my fault, neither partly nor wholly yours.

i am just pathetic, useless and stupid. w/e u call me, i shall accept it. i care, but what can i do?

i posted again!

2007-05-07T21:03:00.000+08:00

happy? i posted again! woots!

~6th May 2007~

yeah right~ this time i'll also post with some pics.. because like i told you guys in the tagboard if i am not wrong, i always use pics to remind me what to blog hahahahas

omg... tmr's History MYE... and i haven't even study the skills... haiz SLACK! i haven't finish my revising sia! lol~ i've got to blog faster before my mother comes back and nag at me again..

she's been "cursing" me lol.. kept telling me to stop playing computer otherwise if i FAIL, yadayadayada~ orh man... what a discouraging word lah! LOL~ she's always like that luh, i've got nothing to do... and what i dislike about her is.. she knows that if i "fail", my dad will restrict my activities to such an extent that i may not be able to go to church activities (if so things gonna be getting scary btwn me and my dad, i tell ya), and my mum doesn't even defend me - she is a Christian lehz.. oh forget it~ LET'S TALK ABOUT SOME HAIRPEE (oops) THINGS, SHALL WE????

today's maths've been quite hard~ i managed to finish paper 2 but paper 1 - i didn't finish my last two 4-mark questions.. sad right? i also didn't finish my chinese paper and i've guaranteed lost 5 marks since i skipped a 5-mark compre qn and didn't have the time to go back..

arghzzzzz i donno why.. since primary 5 or something, my time management skills in exams are getting worse... not only in exams, in comparison with my other classmates, i am always slower than some people when doing work... to conclude, basically and generally - i am slow, period. T_T its like so sad lah we even have the chance to use calculators for both papers yet i am still so slow... i suddenly find myself kinda useless... yeah, useless. arhhh whhyyyy?!?!?!?! k forget it, aren't we supposed to talk about HAIRPEE things?!?!

and yeah i am in the spelling bee and i spell such a basic word happy like this... how disappointing! lol~

about the maths exam, my friend amirul forgot to bring his calculator... btw amirul is one of the quietest boy in the whole class... he seldom talks, but do like to joke with us, though in a way that its very silent.. or you call it dark humour... LOL so yeeah, for paper 1, poor thing - forgot to bring calculator... haiz.. den we were having a break after paper 1 before proceeding to paper 2..
i met amirul on the way to the canteen:

jeremy: hey amirul, have you got a calculator?
amirul:
jeremy: what?! then quickly get it from mrs neo (our maths tchr) lah, she surely has one! right?
santhosh (the guy who was walking with him): he shy what!
jeremy: then you go with him lorhz~

AND OMG! I SUDDDENLY RMB I HAVE TO SEW THAT CLOTH BY TMR LAHHHHHHH OMG OMG HOW HOW~

k back to the topic, btw santhosh and amirul are one of the mostly-neglected guys in our class.. and they are indian and malay respectively.. which is kinda sad cuz its like the chinese guys in the class dun seem to practise racial harmony... den i find that we have kinda neglected both of them... so thats why i usually talk to them sometimes.. perhaps they were walking together that time to share their qualms of being neglected in class? lol

and that time i just walked away after i said my last sentence.. i felt quite "irresponsible" that time.. dunno why lol

~8th May 2007~

just had my science mye... hmm it was mediocre, or quite easy... BUT - i didn't finish the whole paper. arrhhh you see, i am slow. =( i didn't do the last question... it was about the ship in seawater and freshwater... 心烦意乱liao so couldn't think about it.. and moreover by that time, time's up. wahhhhhhhhh bad time management wors~ if my parents about it they will be like mount merapi liao lorhz~

lol mount merapi.. see see, i studied my history~ -.-

my dad came back from sabah yesterday. no big deal anyway. -> i dun even know what is he doing there too lol. i didn't bother to ask and he didn't bother to tell ==" LOL!

oh yea pastor kong is back to preach in church lerhz! and wow~ HE PREACHED TO 75 MEETINGS SIA IN 5 WEEKS.. if i am not wrong about that 5 wks part. all i know he has been travelling around taiwan - go to taipei, go to taiyuan, then back to taipei, go to xindian, then back to taipei - LOL! something like that, he travelled tons of time around taipei.. but its nice lah, at least lots of pple got saved..

and yeah, i remembered sth.. it was before the church service.. i was sitting beside my cell group member Samuel who looked like PETER PARKER... according to catherine my the other member.

catherine: eh, don't you think samuel looks like Peter Parker

jeremy: huh? who is peter parker?

catherine: spiderman lah!

jeremy: HUH!oh my God~ omg, really lehz how you know one..

LOL! and he was like so "huh?" that kind of look... samuel is just one of the shyshy paiseh guy and talk very little derhz... so sometimes it can be very very difficult to talk to him.. can give 1-word answers. but its cute lah ROFL. if i've gotta chance to take his photo den it'll be gd. BTW, HE'S NOT A CAUCASIAN OR WHITE, he just look the same as spiderman... guess what, i am kinda xenophobic.. lol!

and after the service, i was noticing my cg members caleb and jeremiah (my name is jeremy, rmb ==") wearing the same shirt lol~ so i decided to take a photo.. woots:

hmmm let me think of anymore to blog about....

omg.. i rmb the no. of dengue cases in my neighbourhood change from 2 to 4 to 5!!!! wow!!!! great .

that's all i think. =D TAG HORS!

sorry~

2007-05-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

sorry guys, i know i've not been blogging yeah.. hahas sorry for not blogging for the whole april.. was just affected greatly by so many things, being so busy..

april was indeed a busy and very sad month... haiz

anyway.. first i would like to talk about a little bit of a political kind of things anw hahaa

yeah i've recently came across a news about animal abuse by dreys... i was like soo disgusted by it and couldn't hold any longer to continue scrolling down to words when i was seeing the poor and desperate plight of the cat, being sexually abused.. or you would simply call it rape.

OH WHAT'S WRONG WITH HUMANS?!

read the below articles, which are in chinese, otherwise just view the pics.. ERM WAIT, if you have a weak heart, please refrain from entering the sites below, the pics are SUPERBLY GROSS, it may cause discomfort.. i shall NOT be held responsible for any accident upon your entrance to the site whether fatal or otherwise.

ok i shall stop my seriousness. hahahaa. but reli, do it at your own risk. u never know how gross they are.

http://www.twbbs.net.tw/1744401.html
http://forum.taobao.com/forum-22/show_thread----8610692-.htm#
http://cache.tianya.cn/techforum/Content/75/552277.shtml

so the main point of the articles is talking about a lady who was treating an abandoned cat that we usually find on the streets, just that for this case the cat is seriously injured.. and the abandoned cat was seriously injured especially around its private area (k fine dunnid to eek kays? -_-) and while she and her colleague were treating the cat (according to the text the cat is a "female" lol) and the lady pulled out this thing from the cat's dadada area that apparently looked like a male's pubic hair..

ahem ok just skip to the next part of my blog if u aare feeling uncomfortable extremely here.. =D so the lady broke down.. and all of us know, wad had happened right? IF YOU DUNNO, i salute you and your purest mind. apparently there had been a man who yadayadayadayada to the cat and den abandon it luh..

THIS IS LIKE SOOOO AGAINST HUMAN NATURE AND ITS SUCH A BRUTAL AND UNCIVILIZED WAY OF ANIMAL ABUSE LAHS! how can a man do such a thing?!?!?!?!

wth lahsss how can pple do such things.. and guess what in China pple started to kill cats and dogs for food.. omg i can't imagine it.. guys u see, we have lots of animal's meat to eat oredi - chicken, fish, pork, beef, duck yadayadayada.. from hindsight aren't we cruel enuf to kill them for food, just cuz for our benefit? but yah we know its not immoral to do such a thing universally, but dun u think - from hindsight, it just seems so cruel?

and why, are they going beyond to more animals? haven't we got enough? cats and dogs are like such a wonder of nature, they are just one of our greatest friends yet some pple just abuse them like hell.. oh what is this man

i can't imagine the day when dogs and cats are extinct - china is killing 1000 cats and dogs everyday, just for their own food.

if thats what china does, i can be ashamed to be a chinese.. but why not, we can be also ashamed to be humans..

haiz.. but lol, why did i sound so serious about this? I DIDNT KNOW I AM SUCH AN EXTREMIST IN ANIMAL RIGHTS wahahahahahahaha

i m weird, pardon me =D

haiz exams are coming and that means my mother is gonna nag at me to study and study.. like what jiarong said, STUDYING ARE FOR NERDS.. LOL! ok lah i know its bad to say that.. but serious i just dun like to study, i get very restless after studying for a while.. but who cares, i just have to try my best =D

yeah talking about jiarong.. that guy who is so sarcastic that can go "omg this is like my favourite game lorhz" while we were in the Courts shop and he was pointing to the hello kitty game.. DIAO ==" LOL! jiarong is someone whom i've met in msn, like i said last time I LIKE TO ADD PPLE ANYHOW ONEZZZZ..

he likes to go to jurong point to eat lunch i suppose.. cuz everytime he is asking me out to go to jp and eat lunch.. ahhahahhass.. today too..

today i woke up at 7 am.. i took a shower, and then 7.45 i went out to go to piano class.. yadayadayada 10.20 am i took a 174 bus to Jurong Point.. and about 11 am i reached.. JIARONG SMSED ME TO CHANGE TIME FROM 11.30 TO 12 T_T.. how can like that?!?! lol~ den too bad lorhz so i just walked ard.. i went to mac and used the computer there.. wow indeed the coms are super lag.. one of the coms somore got maple story character as wallpaper sia.. LOL den i used the other one and den just fool around in blogskins.com, as in posting in the forums yeah..

scarlee the woman beside me who is also using the computer, asked me what is the elearning website.. i was like o_O ???? i bet there are lots right.. there should be a specific name for the service mahs ..... and the school should've given her children the url isn't it?? aand btw the children looked so 6-year-old kind lehz and it was they who asked the mother about it... i was kinda shocked, woah.. primary 1 that kind of age also start to use com to do homework le wors? diao clap clap for govt.. =,="

den i went to popular bookshops.. i was attracted by those chinese books which cost $4.90 for one and $9.90 for three.. wow i was like reading through the books.. BUT THE BOOKS ARE SO DISORGANIZED.. they are just messed up... so i was reading through the books AND WTH THERE ARE NO FICTION BOOKS.. all are just talking about 大道理 that kind, like how to deal with backstabbing or sth.. how to become successful or wateva.. and thats what i hate about chinese books from taiwan.. they are like all talking about big theories and it can get very boring as i was reading on.. haiz somehow i regretted when i was in taiwan that i refused to buy one of the fiction books.. i rmb the beginnning was so nice.. budden i know i spent quite a lot on books so i didnt have the guts and face to buy one more book.. so i just left without buying.. hahas sad right?

and thats when jiarong smsed he was reaching jp.. fine.. den i went down to mac and met him.. so we eat lorhs.. he was saying that not so many pple like Chicken Fantastic as i was telling him my order.. and he said that is why i had to wait a while cuz probably mac didn't expect my order... lol lahs~ but omg i just like Chicken Fantastic a lot lahs.. i only dislike the overflowing vegetables, but i am fine with eating them.. the vegetables always overflow lorhs, so i have to eat the vegetables alone before i eat the burger hahahahhas. i wonder why so many pple hate Chicken Fantastic.. =(

after that we went to popular.. i was talking about those chinese books and i said i wanted to buy one of them.. and when jiarong looked at those chinese books, he lost his "book-appetite" LOL~ oh but real sad, i wonder why so many pple dun like chinese.. i mean chinese is nice wat.. the problem why pple hate chinese is maybe cuz of boring teachers, boring lessons, boring campaigns, uneffective campaigns etc... and thats where govt starts to compromise with students.. now this brings me back to the compre psg in my chinese exam hahahas.. it talked about how govt compromised with the students to raise the students' interest in chinese language.. and the author said that sometimes it can be quite sad that our standard of chinese in singapore have to decrease just cuz of raising interest in chinese...

sad luh.. SO GUYS LETS STUDY HARD FOR CHINESE KK??? yeah right.. lol

and so me and jiarong were walking ard until i found out that i couldn't tolerate my stomachache and then i told jiarong to leave first since i got a stomachache... and thats why now jiarong smsed me that i forgot to send him a file thru hp lol~

yeah dunno why, i usually get stomachache after eating fastfood.. lol weird eh?

talking about chinese... lol.. our school have this "母语周", socalled mothertongue week.. and is holding 3 competitions

剪纸比赛 (paper cutting)
中文输入比赛 (chinese-typing) JOINED~ =D
歌喉比赛 (or wadeva u call that, singing comp) JOINED~ =D

LOL singing competition is a must-join for me lahs! hahahaha for the chinese typing thingy i m quite good at typing mahz so i join lorhz.. since its like the whole class dun wan join... so i help the class lorhz see i so good ==" and for the singing competition oso only me join.. woah so poor thing.. i was like wondering why, there are so many girls in my class who love to sing lorhs... and suddenly they become so hidden when the competition come.. lol!

and i decided to play the piano and sing along... cuz my actions during singing in standing position really sucks LOL! either i sway here sway there or i stand still diao~ k that was stupid but the problem is i can't find any music score pop songs that can suit my voice range. so guess wat? i decided to compose my own song.. I KNOW ITS STUPID HAHHAAHAHAHAHAHA
this is the lyrics so far... of course in chinese:

夜夜无法入眠
我翻翻照片
想念美好的童年
我抚今追昔
哭泣突然想放弃

我怎么哭泣
我怎么想念
都不能带我回去从前
我怎么惆怅
我怎么绝望
也不能把这全遗忘

我要离开
不再受到这种伤害
我的将来
是显得多么的渺茫
为什么
你要夺走我的快乐
我的心已累
被你割得快要破碎

自从那残酷的一夜
我这一生转变
一切回不了原点
说好你永是我依靠
永远在你怀抱
你违背了诺言

我别无所求
只求时光倒流
我要历史重演
重演快乐童年~~~~~~~ Etc etc

O_O ok fine.. i havent finish it... anw i only found a tune for the chorus part "我要离开……" the other parts i pray to God for inspirations hahahahaha... and i have to do all these by 14th may, just after the exams.. wow great .

hahahas.. sorry if i sound very random in my blogging... its just cuz i am blogging what comes to my mind... and yeah DREYS! SORRY LAH IF I PISS U OFF... sorry, kk? i didn't mean any harm luhs.. dun be so emo kaykay? cheer up! rmb to read 2 Cor 5:17 lehs lol~ must cheer up! life has to go on! just let everything become history yeahs

and wat next? erm i rmb there's sth about school.. yeah we practised so hard for it and rehearsed so hard... but everything seem so un-appreciate-tive.. erghhhz forget it i dun wan to talk about this..

recently i met brenda and her friend abigail in jurong point mac... den we talked like we haven't met for 10 years or sth... lol!

i asked abigail how did she go into mediacorp, and she said it was by her tuition teacher.. O_O FINE I WANT THAT TUITION TEACHER LOL!

wow abigail was one real radio! LOL! ooops! she talked non-stop about using handphones in class (as in, her experiences) and it was like so funny... she told me this kind of excuse if the teacher finds out u use hp in class. say it acbc-ly and innocently

my mummy say hor, that pple call me must pick up one. otherwise, my mummy say very rude lehz.

lol`~ LAME so abigail was talking from mac, to the bus interchange, and to in the bus, and until she left. PHEW! LOL! oooops hope abigail is not seeing this whahahaahaa.
and yeah we took a pic:

recently i got a new neighbour.. but they are kinda inconsiderate.. cuz there were many unused items in their house so they need to dispose it... the thing is their refuse was like so much but they occupied our lift lobbies and corridors around our houses.. u've got to relli see the pics:

at first it was like this, then it becomes this --->

then it becomes like this, yea right --->

and in my neighbourhood got those many banners and notices pasting everywhere say that ard here got dengue fever O_O WHAT?!?! LOL..

and suddenly it becomes 4 cases --->

last time there was this letter in chinese pasted on the walls of the male toilet.. btw it was pasted using the Singapore Examinations Assessments Board (SEAB) Secret Tape (think it is used to tape those exam papers up since they are secret) the letter was from a worker who cannot stand pple who misuse the toilet paper:

同学们
你们昨天把卫生纸弄到满地都是。卫生纸是给你们大便用不是给你们玩。不要一时贪玩，害到别的同学没得用。现在给你们一个机会，我放多一卷卫生纸给你们用。如果再弄的地上满地丢，OM 说，就不给你们用（用照片作证）谢谢合作。厕所是给你们方便，不是给你们玩纸。
Auntie上
18-4-2007
18-22日是地球日，不要再浪费纸张。

lol~ "Auntie上"~ ==

if u wan to see the original version can click the closeup version of the pic... den zoom in.. thats what i do to get the msg hahahahas

i think thats alll woots! wat a long post

i've burnt $95

2007-03-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

i've burnt $95.. u will know how

first i got in the spelling bee semifinals haha... thank God for answering my short and hasty prayer before the competition, God's good all the time! thank you bennie for helping me with testing random words, without you i'd've been lost on some of the words and not get in the semifinals.

orh next to come is the 1500 words challenge. surprisingly, the semifinals words is like 900 words , but compared to the preliminaries 600 words, the semifinals is easier. but despite so, semifinals is testing on both preliminaries and semifinals, except that preliminary round its written but now semifinals is oral one.

oh God, bless me !!

haiz, now i am getting more and more spiritually weak.. i mean, i've got no time to read the Bible, perhaps if i got like now i might be slacking... diao i am so idiot, haiz haiz haiz... HELP!!!!

besides spelling bee, i also joined script writing cuz pple have been saying that my scripts are funny.. haha. i also joined creative advertisement design competition, for this its gonna be tough, i've to get all my endorphins ready and be as creative as i can, and i've got to find a printing company to print it on a 27 x 37 cm paper.. i've got to buy black mounting board, i dunno where to buy this thingy i dun even know whats that.. ahh guys if u know where to buy pls tell me

i am putting my hopes high for spelling bee, I WANT THAT $1000!!!! lol

kk... LOL a few days ago i jus found out that kickapoo was yellow, instead of green which i've always been assuming for long. OMG! wasn't that stupid?!?! i liked kickapoo a lot but i don't even know its colour, OH KICKAPOO SORRY I'VE DISAPPOINTED U T_T

OMG MY SCHOOL IS HOLDING THIS CROSS-COUNTRY BOYS RUN 4.8 KM GIRLS RUN 3.2 KM. OH MY GAWD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS STUPID STUPID STUPID
EXPECT ME RUN 4.8
1.6 KM I CAN DROP DOWN
2.4 KM I CAN GET BREATHLESS LIKE HOW U DO IN HEART ATTACK
4.8 KM I CAN GET HEART ATTACK AND FAINT AND DIE IN HOSPITAL LAHHHH

ROFL LMAO LOL that was lame... nvm honestly i can't take it la.. 4.8 km.. this is O_O.. i was so freaking freaked out when i heard that distance...

O.o napfa is in july, so late? haha
heard my school want us all PASS. wth.. i can't do it la... and i heard dun care what must pass, get retest continuous O_O

OMG

haiz

yeah i burnt $95.. first. my mum handed $20 to my aunt to burn the hell offerings.. inside is those "daily necessities" like "toothpase", "handphone" .. i thought it was ridiculous lor.. will the ancestors reli receive it???? i mean... and also hell notes.

then $65 was for my maternal grandparents... 3 boxes of "daily necessities" and the joss sticks. my mum and i didnt touch the joss sticks, but i did touch its packet haha. i mean yah.. believers arent supposed to hold onto joss sticks and pray to other gods. =(

so like that, $95 worth of hell offerings, given to the workers, and they just threw it to the ashes of fire.. gone

O_O actually i also dunno what to say about such things... my mum told me that though my grandpa wasnt a believer... he bought me a cross necklace, cuz i got christianity due to my mum, =D haiz.. but.. its just sad.. D:

haha u know wat.. my mum and i had a very very bad time searching for my maternal grandma.. but when my dad came, my dad just found it in a flash... LOL so sad, we dun even know where are my grandparents' ashes... =((( must be very disappointing 2 pple. haiz nvm

hmm i dunno what more to post liao

haiz SCHOOL TMR... i love friday, but i hate sunday esp its night.

nights

NEW SKIN!

2007-03-15T02:42:00.000+08:00

harlowz!

yep new skin.. don't know whether it's nice?? LOL

found it kinda random.. haha

don't know why but interjections just came to my mind thus i decided to make one about it.. yep.. hope u guys can comment about it on the tagboard yep.

cleared the tagboard, so that its "cleanner" hahahaha

yep.. think that's all

TAG!

lalala

2007-03-05T20:04:00.000+08:00

hallos! share one picture first:

lol? Tiger? hahaz tell you guys it isn't easy for me to capture this, because everyone was walking there and here around and i can't really find a chance to take a photo of this.. so i was idling to and fro around the lift lobby, somehow looking like those "suspicious-looking" people, loitering around LOL. so i was waiting for two ladies to finish their business and go into the lift and let me do my business. but when two of them entered the lift one of them screamed while the lift door was closing. after that, while the elevator was ascending, could hear the alarm bell sounded once, and the lift halted at 14th. eh? seems like they were.. lallalala must have watched lots of drama serials. my thoughts are too sporty!

SHUCKS LEFT MY PENCIL CASE AT THE SCHOOL AUDIT

hello

2007-03-02T15:52:00.000+08:00

hmm i don't know what to blog!!!

today whoa... i've got a bad-tempered classmate who came from China. my partner went to get homework from him and don't know for what reason he pulled my partner so hardly and fought, and he hit my partner. whoa... was quite bewildered what they were doing even though the teacher had stopped them. so yep, it wasn't my partner's fault by his fault over his impulsive violence~

and after that, the matter wasn't over.. after the teacher had rebuked him, somehow silently, i was about to go set up the teacher's computer before i get surprised over what he was doing so hardly - scraping a piece of fool-scap paper so hardly with a pen until the paper get's torn after which he threw it away. "whoa~"

lol i remembered i told my friends who were not from china a racist joke against chinamen, so i warned them not to tell that person, but one very trouble-seeking guy go told him about it.. and in the end, i got hit by him with his mathematics textbook so hardly on my head (you know how thick is that book eh) that trouble-seeking man acted so hypocrite and followed that impulsive guy's instructions by pushing down my shoulders so that i can't manoeuvre my hands... lalala nevermind i know it was all my fault, but i was kinda surprised by their behaviour (especially the impulsive guy's impulsiveness) as it was the first time i knew about his temper.

ARGHZ i wonder why do the guys in my class are so perverted and childish (went to play with the projector string) and when i talk and joke with the girls in my class the boys would think i am a flirt. diao! it's not like we are homosexuals and sexists that we cannot even talk to the opposite gender for even once eh? so that trouble-seeking guy kept saying i was a flirt, and when i got angry he said it was merely a joke, oh but it was not fun and insulting because he has been repeating that not-funny joke like for umpteen times. haha, perhaps, he is jealous and have difficulties in "flirting" (relating with females)???? LOL, so he had to cover up this truth by making fun of me.. yeah yeah

we are 13 years old already, not like those 7 years old when they will wince and make fun and "eeeeeeee"over and feel disgusted to relate with females.. if you only choose to talk to only people of your gender, it's gonna bring many problems in future relationships, like marriages (i know some of you will think "Jeremy? Marriage?" LOL c'mon marriage is gonna be one of the happiest thing and the thing you long for in the future, so don't go "eeeeeeeeeee" like those primary ones) and even friendships. so be sensible and mature, relating with people of your gender only is not something really good. remember: relating with people of the other gender is not flirting. Duh!

OK end for school. got a photograph that has cursed CNY lol... see this:

last week cell group was fun because it had YUSHENG! 鱼生!! hahaha don't know why it tasted much much much better than the one in my reunion dinner. LOL

lol notice those white-pink things there sprawled? LOL those were sashimi that were COOKED. LOL sashimi wasn't supposed to be cooked if put in yusheng. But, still, it was still a different feeling - delicious!

closer view lol

lol this plate of yusheng has received overwhleming response... special!

捞啊！

Getting ready to eat... いただきます！ITADAKIMASU!

T_T I WANT MORE! diao!

duh~ ok i think that's all for today's post! OFF!

LONG TIME NO POST

2007-02-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

haha long time no post.. sorry because of some kind of reasons.. i'm afraid i've to post in greater intervals next time. BECAUSE I AM GETTING MORE AND MORE TIRED AND BUSIER AND BUSIER.

haha. ok talk about chinese new year.. was fun, because the 3rd day was my birthday!!!! (not lunar birthday, is gregorian birthday) yay i am 13 now!! whootz! WOOTZ WOOTS! diao

i just went to my uncles' house then play with my cousins.. haha my niece also.. lol my niece was the one who planned the games, actually i very lazy to play.. don't know why too.. but she managed to compel me to play. haha.

lol let me tell you guys my niece (my cousin's daughter) is older than me by a year! LOL

haha we played games like pass the parcel, bingo (i won a round!), musical chairs (i won!) and quite more.. blow wind blow and dog & bone. haha was fun

got some pressies for winning haha.

for my birthday... lol invited some friends in.. not really many... audrey, lucas, puikay, brenda, amarjeet, parveen, maternal cousin (who was sticked to the computer), mother's friend's son.. lol i think that's about it. we just idled around.. while some of us played some stupid games. i didn't really planned them good. lol sorry haha.

one thing really special was... I FREAKED OUT WHEN LUCAS CALLED ME MAMA... AUDREY YOU'RE RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS!!!!!!!!!!! LOL! hahahaa.. and audrey gave me this chocolate cake (there was one day she asked me i liked chocolate or mocha) with this container:

yes this is the cake's container (which cake i've already safekept in my stomach LOL), obviously you can see that "MAMA!" written there.. LUCKILY my mother didn't witness this or she might get hysterical and crazy LOL!

i told puikay to bring her guitar but I WAS SOOO DISAPPOINTED that her guitar was one of the worst guitars i've ever seen (WHOOPZ! SORRY PUIKAY PLEASE DON'T PARANG ME! 实话实说　有话就说) it's pitches matches with my tuner... but it isn't loud enough... i don't know if it's puikay's problem or her guitar's problem that it sounded so soft and weak. no wonder she bought it for only 10 singapore dollars (i think she bought it from china.. is it?) ok... that's bad... now i know the whole thing.. lol! puikay get a better guitar!!!!

lucas was always hinting brenda about qisong (whom i invited but said he wasn't free), then brenda was sizzling with anger by then, eyes so focused in lucas, while lucas got a little afraid LOL, then audrey came to defend him. lol. brenda was scary!!! you rock in being angry! LOL

my maternal cousin, lol very very addicted to his gameboy and my computer.. but occassionally did play with puikay's guitar and brought it everyhere and there.. lol. then when my friends "bullied" (just playing with him) him he would pretend to cry something like "mummy someone bullied me!" puikay, i, audrey, kinda freaked out.. "whoa~~" lol he's very funny lol. actually he came to my house the previous day and he was so excited to come the next day (my birthday) not for my birthday, but my computer... and he wasted a great part of my printer's ink on his pokemon information.. he printed so many pokemon.. and i had to reluctantly let him print more and more.. at the end i could see the ink level going down and down sadly.. lol..

i wonder if the 12-year-olds (p6s) in 2007 is still in this pokemon era (remembering there were times when they brought those pokemon cards and show it off to people i've got this i've got that~ at the end got confiscated LOL)? i mean.. last year p6s we don't even play with pokemon or etc.. don't tell me pokemon is now getting popularity within p6s this year?!?!?! i remember another era when we would staple our eraser and spin it.. competing whose eraser could spin and last longer.. LOL

haha anyway the birthday party was fun haha thanks for spending a wonderful day with me =DDD!!

okay.. a few days ago, guys guess what! ---- I DROPPED MY CHINESE TEACHER'S LAPTOP RIGHT ON THE FLOOR. OH MY GOD! thank God that that teacher wasn't that kind of mean one, and thank God that the laptop was durable enough. he just told me 下次小心一点~~~ that time was replying to my teacher's question why i had stomachache.. i said i always have stomachaches in the morning.. don't know why. so that time i wasn't noticing that the laptop just dropped.. LOL I AM SO TOOT!

today.. in school.. my friends, secondary 1 pupils, for no rhyme or reason played with the projector string~ diao! what's so fun with that.. i wonder~

and i tell you, many of the guys in my class are so perverted~

1. one of them kept saying i love you to me
2. one of them deliberately go focus his eyes on my legs (somewhere~ there YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN) wherever i go
3. one of them, sitting beside me, could hug me for no rhyme or reason every after a moment.. scary!
4. two of them, a pair would always pair up and talk about and "do" many perverted actions, which i prefer not to reveal.

i mean most of them, they would laugh like so pervertedly, so 色迷迷 that kind of laugh~ "hehehehehe" it sounds so perverted~ a little scary too. my friend sitting beside me would always say something like this when people purposely notice him, "请不要用那种色迷迷的眼神来看着我，我会很害怕的！" OMG LIKE WHAT! LIKE HE'S SO DASHING... DIAO!

i really don't like some of the guys in my class, they are just too perverted~ even if they are in that kind of so-called puberty stage they still have to control themselves, isn't it??? LOL

today, i also explained the movie Just Follow Law so confusingly that nobody really cared to listen... hhahaa OH MY GOD YOU GUYS MUST WATCH THIS MOVIE! NO MATTER WHAT. IT'S SO FUNNY...

and guys who have watched must also go to fann wong's mother's blog (as in the movie) http://laozhabor.blogspot.com LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUST SEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ALMOST LAUGHED MY HEART OUT WHEN I SAW THAT BLOG... but i thought it was not made by that aunty, maybe by the directors.. perhaps they wanted to promote the movie yeah.. but the photograph there.. OH MY GOODNESS I COULDN'T CONTAIN MYSELF ANYMORE HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH ROFL ROFL HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAL LMAO LMAO! LOLLLLLLLLLL diao i am over-reacting...

i like that movie very much, one of the best comedy movie of all.. CC cover ca-cng BCC better cover ca-cng LOL! I laughed at the way how fann wong touched herself when she realised she exchanged bodies with gurmit..

I LIKE THAT INDIAN MAN MUTHU LOL!!!!! GO CLAMPP THE FIRE ENGINE. LOL! HE SO TOOT! follow law follow law..

last time i never follow rules, kena scolded; now i follow rules, i also kena scolded~ aiyooooo i wanna go back to india larhh~~~ {knocks temple several times}

LOL!! I LIKE THAT PART.. LAUGHED MY BODY OUT...

anyway it's a movie that shouldn't be missed, MUST WATCH!

there was another part when gurmit and fann because exchanged souls so went to the priest (those chinese kind of priest they will be half-naked one) LOL I LAUGHED SO HARD ON HOW THE PRIEST SO-CALLED "DANCE" AND "DANCE" AS HARD AS HE COULD TO EXCHANGED THEIR SOULS BACK.. MUST WATCH!

LOL!

anyway... yes sorry for some over-reactions eh. LOL!

recently went to sheng siong and saw this banner..

sometimes people still have to sacrifice more even if they sacrificed once so much and did well~~ haiz haha

thought did psle well can relax, but at the end have to go for interviews and banner-shooting.. hahaha.

ok i think that's all! nights! this is a long post man!

i am treated well~

2007-02-10T00:34:00.000+08:00

just wanna tell all of you in case you get the wrong idea -

i am well-treated in family most of the time (in fact almost everytime), i am not physically abused or something. 我在家里通常过得好，没有被虐待之类的事的……

the bad things i've said about my family are just my means of venting anger and emotional stress, so i am sorry to be impulsive to say such a thing. 过去讲过家的坏话只因心情不好才在这里发愁，所以对不起

just some clarifications =D 希望不要误会

for the benefit of twilight...

2007-02-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

ok for the benefit of twilight, and maybe xiendong too - i'll summon my last few ounces of energy to type this post. SATISFIED??? lol!!! i sound so hostile~~ that's not me =D

yeahzzz.. erm ok let me recall some things...

ahh before that, haizzz.. there was one day when i went to the toilet to do big business SEVEN TIMES. the next day, TWO times.. WOW right??
that day when i was in school, shucks man! i saw a remainding single "tapeworm" in the toilet bowl after my business (i actually flushed once and saw that single one, but somehow i have an impression that there was several before i flushed, ok gross..)
so i was kinda worried, when i went back i went to internet to search about such things.. and it said that tapeworm eggs could be infesting too, so i was like "so shocked!" because from last year i've already discovered this white little thing appearing that i am certain it shouldn't be there.. arghz.. sorry if it was gross, but all of these is just true account..
so i told my parents and they told me to go see the doctor.. the doctor told me to do something (which i don't prefer to say out so directly but i think you automatically know) at home and then give him the enclosed-tight "thing" to him for investigation. i know it's gross.. please don't ask me what's the thing, YOU MUST AND CAN REALISE IT.
anyway, i've been waiting for the results and the clinic told me to go to their branch on monday.. lalala
anyway, i am just quite worried 'cause the problem was already existed from like.. last year.. but i thought it was normal or something, so i just took it for granted. then, that time when i saw TAPEWORMS .. somehow i realised the whole picture. ARHH SO SCARED, IF HAVE TO GO FOR SURGERY HOW?????!!!!!!!!!! hope not, hope that medical treatment is good enough. WEHHH T.T

ok by the way you guys want to "eeeeeewwww" in my tagboard instead of concerning etc, i suggest you don't have to do that because there's no need to. seriously, i don't like it - don't trouble me to go to the tagboard and delete them.. =D

ahhh this weekend's homework is A LOT!!!!!!!!

ok puikay have heard me sang twice.. and she said they were nice.. she went "WOAH.. WOAH.. WOAH" ok lame.. did i really sing that good?? WOAH!! I SO PROUD OF MYSELF! ==" ok la.. i admit my singing quite good (i need a ruler to measure my skin's thickness perhaps..) LOL. but then not really as good as those singers out there like erm weilian, erm zhiyang, diya etc i can admit to the most.
but that's not really the main point i wanna say. I WANT TO SAY THAT I WANT TO JOIN CAMPUS SUPERSTAR!!!!!!!!!! yeah, i know.. it might sound silly to some people. either this year or next year i will join.. arhhh but i don't really know how to speak to my parents about this. moreover, I LOOK SO FAT LOL! I WILL BE OUT in one of the rounds de.. 'cause this materialistic and modern society, yeah you know, looks can be like WHOA... SO IMPORTANT. i am not negative about that anyway, just stating facts.
ahh i don't really know. very anxious.. i don't know what to do when i become a "star", i don't want to dwell in my house forever or i will be crazy one day. by then i cannot do many things le, i cannot go shopping whenever i want (or crazy people will ask for signature, OK I AM PREDICTING THE FUTURE SO NAIVELY NOW.. ) but i don't think i will have crazy fans though, you know - the fact that i am FAT. lol. so, yay! =="
i might not be able to add anyone i like in MSN. but you guys also have to help me by not revealing my contact means to any outsider. though i want to be popular, i don't want to be THAT popular. lol

oh my God i really am thinking so far! HOW CAN I BE SO NAIVE

i am so self-contradictory. =="

ok i think that's all for this post. TAG OR I WILL ... do nothing =="

arghz

2007-01-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

lala oh my God~~

i really can't believe myself to waste my precious time lecturing someone~

i am too silly!!!

i shouldn't be that busybody,

oh but what are friends for?

so i insist on doing something

oh but sometimes people can just get TOO stubborn for us to change..

so, HECK CARE!

lolz~ puikay, sorry~ xiendong is a gone case, he's beyond everyone's control, except God of course lol.

lol last time in blogskins.com i argued with 0914 ebi, she said she has wasted part of her life debating with me. lol. that's not the point, i just wanna repeat this to xiendong:
LECTURING YOU HAS WASTED MOST OF MY LIFE

he has driven me to resort to slamming my head to walls, throwing refrigerators and televisions down from 10th level to 1st level. LOL ok i am just joking about this.

i really regretted the most arguing with him, lecturing him~ it was such a waste of time.. he doesn't appreciate our kind support for his change, and always thought that we are thinking changing himself is some kind of debt or arrears that he haven't settled with us, so we are now tax collectors chasing after him to settle these arrears. lol, but in fact, changing oneself is a personal vocation that one can do without anyone~ why do we need people to change us? we are we, i am i, you are you, my brain isn't connected with your body, so i can't control you.. how the heck can i change you.. moreover you are super-obstinate and perverse.

he thought by just apologising can settle everything - bleah. haven't you guys listened to the Non-Political Podcast by Mr Brown, where this James Gomez denied this and that with erm the bak chor mee seller. like the seller, sorry also must explain. ok but i mean, i know that's kinda ridiculous, but it's true that apology isn't necessary if it doesn't even do something good. so no use apologising profusely when you do the same thing again and again..

lala.

anyway, skip subject.. this is so sweet:

What's Minnie without Mickey?
What's Tigger without Pooh?
What's Patrick without Spongebob?
What's me without you?

received this from puikay.. lol yeah, friends =D What's me without you guys???

OK SADLY TODAY I GOT 1 DEMERIT POINT (i suppose) FOR LONG FINGERNAILS TODAY.. T.T
haiz.. forget it

hmmz i think that's all for today. lol

seriously~

2007-01-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

seriously xiendong, i cannot freaking leave this matter out of my care.

i really need to accuse you of -
1. attracting pity and attention
2. doing harm to yourself

you utterly do not need to post a screenshot of puikay's blog, no matter what circumstances like puikay invaded yours too or so and so, so to accomplish your way of attracting pity and insults of us (your primary school friends) from your secondary school friends!

in his tagboard:
<(~(00~)>: dun care ur pri frends dey sck and fck! must now see sec frends all of dem love u wad like me this cutie pig

xiendong, according to the above tag, you've not only attracted pity below, but also insults of us. =D

unknown: i really kelian u XD , dun worry ppl will come to understand u better =D

fantaziigal: u realli sound pitiful leh...nvm if u dunno who m i...n don go n try to find out ho

huiyi: hellos=) yah..u really sound so pathetic. make new friends lah.. nice blog anyway.

sorry to the guys whom i've quoted, but you seriously have to agree with me that he's just bringing harm to himself, so you don't have the right to say he should be pitied. he's utterly no worth of pity. i can't freakin care to agree with you that he needs pity and attention if you haven't experienced primary school life with him. it totally was the worst of all, beyond all imaginations and dreams and expectations. i am not accusing you guys for pitying him, because i know you are not aware of how life was with him in the past. i seriously hope that you guys stop pitying him before he gets too happy and proud of himself. i don't see any advantage or effect from pitying him.

he's the one who went around telling people that he knows puikay in the secondary school, when puikay tried all her best to avoid him, because puikay all the while hope that her life would not have xiendong involved in. but her plan failed because of xiendong.

he's the one who went around telling people that he has the same birthday in the secondary school, when puikay tried all her best preventing it being known by people in the school, because puikay all the while hope that in her life she will be no more made fun of again by people in the school. but her plan failed because of xiendong.

i believe he's the one who knows that the society now is filled with people whose hobbies are gossiping, insulting people, but he can't seriously freaking be bothered by it and continued doing harm to puikay, resulting in her being hurt emotionally deeply.

and never did xiendong know that it would also hurt himself because puikay and he became the pair that was made fun of to have affinity between each other, and both was hurt emotionally. but everything that happened was all led by xiendong's actions, all because of xiendong. in reality both were complaining about it, when xiendong was the one who caused all this catastrophe but also done harm to himself and puikay, and at the end acted like nothing had happened and went "you aren't understanding" ... wasn't he the one who weren't understanding to puikay and even himself???

xiendong i seriously need not draw a mindmap or table to show you what led to what. you know it yourself, stop escaping from the truth. i really appreciate the most if you face the music.

i've really no way to change puikay to someone who does not do back the things that you have done to her, but she's the one who supports the statement "an eye for an eye".

SO YOU CANNOT BLAME ANYONE FOR THIS WHEN YOU DONE THIS TO YOURSELF. YOU GOT YOURSELF INTO THIS PLIGHT.

i really think that you deserve this after all, but sadly it hasn't sent you to a deep soul-search. xiendong, you seriously need to do so before your future crashes down before your very own eyes.

like what audrey tagged in your blog, you seriously freaking haven't changed a single bit through this 6 years! and so why are you expecting us to forget everything when we seriously have not received any rhyme or legitimate reason for all these?! or perhaps not a reason, but a change.

the world is not yours only, so you cannot behave the way you like. xiendong, now i've changed your homework for you, last time i said that you don't need to change if you don't affect people around you, but i seriously think that it isn't possible for anyone to do so without affecting people, so YOU SERIOUSLY GOT TO CHANGE.

like what nana (nordiana) tagged in your blog, it's not really nice to have a lot of people against you.

and, let me tell you, you always said you did not have the change to apologise, you had the chance, but apology isn't enough. we don't want to hear sorrys only, we are EXPECTING FROM YOU CHANGE. the word "sorry" isn't effective if it doesn't do sth good.

and why do you say no one is supporting you to change? we are all supporting you to change, otherwise i wouldn't have spent my precious time typing all these. and in fact, i don't think you need people to support you to change, you only need yourself to change, isn't it??? how do we change you if we are not you?? you are you, you are the one who can only change yourself. and moreover, you are so obstinate and perverse, so since when the need of us arise for you to change??? what we said to you travels from our mouth, to your ear, and comes out to your other ear, it doesn't process through your brain~ this is one of the many points for you to change.

for all these i wanted to say, i seriously meant no harm like wanting to defame you or something. but when i talk to you in msn, i receive no reply. so the only way for me to talk to you is blogging. xiendong, take it as a beg from us - think over what you've done in from 2001 to 2006, these 6 years, why are you so odd-one-out? why are you so rejected? why are you so infamous? what impression have you gave us? what replies have you sent us? i mean, there's really many questions waiting for you to answer.

we don't have to be prisoners of our past though we are products of our past. stop dwelling in your past.

yeah, i know, we shouldn't see your flaws, but your flaws are too much for us to avoid talking about, because they are so apparent and always coming out of you to us!

no one can live without friends, you seriously need to change yourself, upgrade yourself, to fit yourself into simple and eternal friendships.

let me tell you again, I MEAN NO HARM

to xiendong

2007-01-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

to xiendong:

i am extremely aware of your desperate and sorrowful plight now - being teased and insulted by people. i am extremely aware that you are very disturbed by this, according to your continuous complaints from you. i am also extremely aware that you have not been pondering over the reason of such things that happened to you.

through the past few years, you've been always very notorious and infamous for your bad attitude and behaviour. most of the time you are in the wrong, sometimes, we admit that we are too. but please think again, what have led to this? everything is a product of the past, so there should be something that have led you to this predicament. i seriously request from you to do some soul-searching. i know, we are all products of our past, but we don't have to be prisoners of our past. unless you really want to take the choice of a life-imprisonment in your past, but there is another choice that you can take if you are open to it - finish your jail sentence in your past and start anew.

and for your information, take note that ATTITUDE is the most important element of life. it is 100% essential for you to be good. take this theory:
A is the 1st letter of the alphabet
T - 20th
T - 20th
I - 9th
T- 20th
U- 21st
D - 4th
E- 5th

add the numbers up, 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5, surprisingly the answer is 100. yes, attitude is 100% essential in your life.

what is your attitude to your life? i believe currently, it is leading an unchanged and sorrowful life for you don't want to start anew; let days pass by, one by one, never plunging into a deep soul-search. i seriously believe that you don't want to lead this kind of life, right? no one wants it.

so you think you are really in this, bad, plight. but think again, YOU are the one who have led yourself to this, YOU are also the one who have led puikay to her plight. so, this is what i call, in chinese, 自作自受. YOU are the one who led yourself and her to this predicament, and YOU are the one who complains only about it. Is it that puikay also have nothing to complain, you think she's made of metal that she can experience so much torture from you? NO!

YOU were the one who have gone around the class, telling everyone that you know her, you have the same birthday as her. and you also want to relate with her so much. SIX YEARS OF TORTURE THAT YOU HAVE SUFFERED, WHY HAVEN'T YOU LEARNT A LESSON FROM IT? you know many people in this world like to gossip, like to insult, without looking before they leap. you cannot control this, so why are you still torturing yourself? let me repeat, six years of torture that you have suffered in primary school, haven't you learn something? don't tell me you did not know by your action could have made matters worse, YOU KNOW IT - SIX YEARS. 6 years = 2190 days = 52560 hours = 3153600 minutes = 189216000 seconds. pardon me if i've made a calculation error or something, but in such a great time, you haven't learn something? bullshit! unless you've been possessed or hypnotised or set into a spell for 6 years, yeah like i will believe it. COME ON.

just get a hold of yourself, before your future comes crashing down before you, before you regret like never before and like there is no tomorrow. nothing can help you to change your life, and nothing can compensate for not changing your life. take it as beg from me, puikay, all my friends etc. don't let us resort to going down on our knees or something, we'll not do so. we may be desperate, but we are not THAT desperate. =D

arghz

2007-01-23T13:12:00.000+08:00

haiz, i feel like an extra person in the family..

我住在一个似家非家的家。

parents don't trust me.. lalala

lalala, i don't want to talk about this anymore.

Anyway, i am sick! YAY! lol i am so happy about this, you know why? because being sick reaps an advantage - NO SCHOOL. yay!

i am in a bout of fever, headache, sore throat, bad phlegm discharge etc. but i bade farewell to my fever and headache =D

haiz, when i told my parents about my sickness, they didn't believe it, and even thought i wanted to play truant. apparently they just don't care. =D so that's why, i don't call where i am staying my home... i can call this a hotel that i am checking in and out permanently, but just don't call it HOME.

sometimes i understand why people resort to suicide, because they felt a temporary meaninglessness of life.

i also felt it.

so, if one day, you notice an exceptionally long period that i don't sign in msn or blog. i might be living in the streets, never coming back "home", or perhaps, i already summoned the total courage to resort to suicide? lol, i am just joking about that suicide part. but i don't even know if that will happen, i don't know what's with my mind too.

llala.

long time no post!

2007-01-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

haha sorry for not posting for so long... so i'll promise i'll make this a kinda-long post.

firstly - the recent prayer meeting. oh my God i kinda felt the presence of God touching me =D was kinda a fruitful and nice experience =D we prayed for a exceptionally long time. it was great!!
ok before that, i was waiting for the other cell group members in bukit batok control station. so there was one person who came and interviewed me, i somehow compellingly accepted to be interviewed.. ok so he asked about my hobbies, my life.. etc while checking some boxes in his paper which i could see it on the spot.. lol one funny part was the life priorities, in numbering order i had to choose which is the most important part of my life to the least important, at first, i chose FREEDOM as number 1 once i saw it, but when i saw RELIGION, i embarrassingly asked for correction. lol, in fact i actually made another mistake, so i embarrassingly told the interviewer to correct 2 times. lol! so he said that since religion is number 1, he asked what my religion was, i said Christian. and he was kind of surprised while he gave me that look, i told him i was actually proceeding to a prayer meeting (i actually said cell group meeting, didn't mean to lie though.. oopz! the phrase cell group just appeared in my mind). then he went on saying that he was from SYFC (Singapore Youth for Christ), i recognise it, love their flash animations. =D but he went on asking for my contact means when i actually told them i was not that free to join their programmes =x, but he insisted, so another compelling action i did. lol!
ok then after that, my cell group member catherine arrived. never did i expect, after she came, there was ANOTHER interviewer going on to interview me!!! i was, so flabbergasted.. i didn't know if it is a different or similar organisation, but it had been a very very weird process... ok but thank God, He "sent" Calvin my cell group leader to me and interrupted, while the interviewer asked me if i have to go, of course i nodded *desperately*, woah thanks to Calvin who saved me from that very weird plight. lol

yup.. about the school camp i had.. i won't be talking negatively about it otherwise i'll be in big trouble, though i do have a lot of negative comments, but i won't be talking so bad about it. =D
the first day, the 1st activity was weaving a ketupat with some kind of leaves. ok, the master took 6 months to master the skillls, while he took almost a minute to weave completely one.. while we took like ages to learn and master it. in the end sadly we didn't manage to complete the process lol.

the 2nd activity was rangoli making, or kolam.. or whatever. LOL
hmm, coincidentally i met Ye Hong who is my ex-classmate in pri 1 and pri 2 in Fuhua Primary. lol so sad, he grew thinner and i grew fatter!!! WAHHHHH T.T no fair no fair. lol ok i'd better accept myself. lol, very nice to meet him again... he managed to recall me when i told him about the van accident i was involved in, where i was innocently blamed for touching the brake..
i was entering the school van after school, and i sat on the front seat. and then this primary 6 bully pushed me while i actually hit the BRAKE and the van moved... oh my God i was so terrified that i hesitated while unlocking the door when i saw the driver signalling to me to unlock. but unfortunately i had produced an accident that cost my father $1000 if i am not wrong. i made the other students stay back late for the van accident. i remember the principal rebuking me "you are out of my school! fullstop!" then i was all blamed for that accident, that time i always thought it was my fault because i was not old enough to think right. but now i knew that it was not my fault, oh but who cares? it's over.. i also did not create any physical accident on anyone, but i remember that the accident actually dented another teacher's car. i felt so guilty and reproachful! but in fact it was all that bully's fault. the next day the discipline master ordered me to stand on stage and tell everyone what i had done. i was stuttering all the way, the master made fun of me, "what 'brake'? you 'break' something ????" it was a very embarrassing situation, i didn't mind it though, 'cause it was my fault i thought. so for that reason my father didn't like the school anymore and sent me to Lakeside where i had both bad and good times, they were just memorable =D
yup that is my story. lol, it happened like when i am primary 2 or sth. ye hong finally knew who i am. lol. it was nice to see him again =D
the 3rd activity, was chinese calligraphy. for no reason people said that my word was nice.. oh my God my word looked like so, , ahem, LOL! but anyway, at least i got praised and got a little too happy LOL.. lalala, trust me, c'mon, I HAVEN'T BEEN PRACTISING CALLIGRAPHY FOR MONTHS! lol
yup so those 3 were the end of the NE programmes. then we moved on to many kinda-dreadful-and-boring activities though.
the most unsatisfied one was the showering part. the student leaders (school alumni) told the boys to share one cubicle with one other boy. oh my God. i went so flabbergasted. it's so perverted! lol, but both of me and my other friend didn't "expose" ourselves! hehe, we just washed our hair and clean up ourselves without stripping anything. =D i had to wash my hair 'cause i was annoyed by my dandruff. arghz.
i was so delighted to hear that we could go back at about 10+ am on the last day, i thought we had to last to 6 pm as written in the letters. lol

lol, just came back from church. i have two very annoying experiences, one in the MRT and the other in church.
the one in MRT:
ok, i was reading The New Paper, while it poked the lady beside me, i apologised and i didn't really bother to see her reaction or sth. a moment later, i accidentally knocked onto the lady's leg while the train jolted. after i said sorry, she looked at me with the half-angry-half-no-choice look, that kind of 无奈 look, that she had no choice 'cause she can't reprimand me or sth. she also sighed very loudly expressing anger, and then following it she moved away to a far position from me. what the, it was so embarrassing to me though no one noticed it.
another one was in church. i was sitting beside this newcomer, apparent from her very quiet and immobilised position while we were praising and worshipping. so there were times that we had to turn to our neighbours and tell them "you gonna enjoy the word", or "be prepared for the word", or etc, it's one of our practices in church. so i turned to my left, who was my cell group member and we both told each other. while i turned to my right who was the newcomer, i told her while she was like.. didn't hear it or ignore me purposely. we had been doing that for like thrice today, but all the times she didn't reply to me. so i was feeling like some one talking to her skin while she ignored me. 一点面子都没有给喔！lol

lol anyway it had been an interesting life. =D

whoo what an arduous day!

2007-01-12T20:04:00.000+08:00

oh my God I just came back from this kinda boring CCA Audition. they said the boys could have a 1 hour break between the auditions, but guess what?! - the choir eaten up our break... haizzz T.T lol in the band audition - lol! my lips were so numb when i blew those woodwind instruments like euphonium, errr tuba and saxophone, and the mallets and drums.. yay i got a 4th grade (1 worst 5 best!) except for the saxophone, oh my God i can't even blow a sound out!!!! so i got 1st grade! LOL!

for the mallets, lalala .. though i know how to play the piano, i don't really know how to play whatever-phone (xylophone or something lalalala) and glockenspiel unless there are letters on the keys. LOL! think i got 4?

for the rhythm, i played the drum, also 4... the comments given was "Cool!" by the band member... YAY! ==" but i don't plan to join the military band though, so too bad - sorry =D

the choir, took TWO HOURS! WOOTZ! ==" sianz la... we sat for so long. ahh i don't have anything to say about it though.

drama, was quite fun... but have nothing to say...

oh but after the whole activity and programme, waiting for a bus wasn't any better... i stood for about 1 hour and as if waited for a snail to crawl from changi to jurong!!!!!! lallala... all the bus that passed by were all FULLLL.... T.T

and finally i have reached home... whoa

lazy to blog anymore already...... byes!

understand more about me :D

2007-01-09T14:40:00.000+08:00

just broke a friendship tie.. but i don't want to talk about it though...

am i really a hypocrite?

LOL! ==" anyway i wasn't desperate and went to try all means to salvage that tie... =D

but there's really a lot of things i wanna clarify, all about me:

1. i am someone who forgives and forget. =D
2. my sorry is a sorry - sincerely, except in the event that i am compelled to apologise when i am innocent in fact.
3. i always let people know how they are thought of for they have the right to know, like you are notorious etc, even if it is a secret - they are dirty secrets. =D note that any trouble that emerges from the revealing isn't my fault, it is a different case eh, isn't it?
4. don't trust me with wrong things like immoral activities or sth. i won't do so.
5. when i haven't promise you to do something, don't take it like i am very smart to promise without any verbal promise.
6. don't misuse my trust to you.
7. i usually do act on impulse and don't look before i leap, so pardon me if i say something harsh that hurt your feelings or something, but i am sure i am not deliberate. if you need me to apologise, i can do so. but if you just keep quiet and do nothing to let me know i hurt you, don't say it's my fault.
8. i am always very straightforward in expressing my opinions and feelings. so don't be too offended.
9. i always fight for my rights and fight for an apology or reason when i am seriously offended (insulted or sth), whenever possible.
10. please pardon me if i go very hysterical when i am offended or something, many things remind me of my past.
11. bribery is not my type =D - don't even try to use money to gain my trust or something.
12. since i forgive and forget, i don't mind if you want to be friends with me again, i will be nice :D
13. i won't salvage broken friendships when i don't feel the need to. but still, point 12 still applies. =D
14. don't take advantage of my trust to you, friendship with you, or something.

yep, i think that's all? lol.. please tag.

trust

2007-01-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

last time there was a person whose MSN Messenger added my email address for no rhyme or reason, he said he didn't add me at all... but it appeared that he added me... but i became netpals with him in the end. and he told me that he is my sworn-brother (lol!) and offered to buy me a guitar, as what i wished... lol, i would be really happy to accept it.. but now the problem is trust, at the end i didn't want him to do so for i really cannot trust him so much... but really, in my heart, somehow it makes me feel it's so real or something etc.. but in the past i've been deceived by so many people, including my best friends, so.. i really can't bring myself to accept his great offer, because i haven't developed enough trust for him~ haha, anyway - if you're reading this, no offence. hehe =="

i've been deceived a lot of times. i've also been betrayed and deceived discreetly till now for 12 years, for that who else can i trust so much (except the perfect God =D) ? so i really don't want to risk to lose my dignity in case it is really another deceit case. i am not saying he's really a baddie in the net or something, but i really and truly and honestly and definitely and absolutely cannot bring myself to trust a person so much...

lol my mother have been nagging at me not to meet anyone on net face-to-face, i always say i am not that stupid to do so.. now this problem came to me, somehow i feel a little guilty LOL!

hmm so if you are reading this, yeah i've already told you much of this already, so hope you understand.

yup drop that subject, yep, let's talk about secondary school. OH MY GOD... the first day gave me a very bad impression of the school, lol! the orientation programme was superbly long! - 8.30 am ~ 6 pm. oh my God! and i bet we didn't have enough rest time. in fact it's quite fun, but sadly it's too tiring and seems very dreadful from its overview. unfortunately there'll be a camp saying hello to me~ 17th will be a total repeat of 3rd january, also from 8.30 am ~ 6 pm. for 18th to 19th, will be a slumber camp. overnight camp basically. haiz, like i said, kinda dreadful. hope it doesn't tire me out till i am too homesick to continue the camp. lol!

haiz not sure why, though school is good, but it's been dreadful to me.. i don't feel like going school. ahhh, who was the one who invented school?! lolz...

maybe that's all... nights!

i feel like leaving my family..

2007-01-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

you only rang the bell twice, when i immediately answered the door. you only called to me once, when immediately ran to you...... why can't you believe me? why don't you trust me? why are parents so illiberal? why can't you give me a brand new and good year? why did you destroy my new year?

christmas, i wasn't enjoying, i celebrated with my beloved friends at 12 am.. one received a hug from her mum, while i didn't receive anything......

you were asking me if i want to buy anything, but you didn't really know what exactly i want... i didn't receive any christmas gift that i liked a lot.. none of them gave me the best impression...

new year wasn't a good one too. you pushed the projector when it crashed, by yourself, and you blamed me for wasting your $900+ yeah, it IS ALWAYS my fault...

i hate my family, i hate my life... my mum - always accuse me of everything she did wrong, my father - unlawfully dallying with a person while acting to me a kind father... you call them parents, come on... i just feel like leaving my family, i don't want to receive anymore unfair treat.. don't tell me to tolerate it, i am not going to lose my very own rights...

i am not to be bullied... if you want to misuse me, murder me or something...

i always wonder, is God punishing me for the sins i committed? people have at least bits better life than me... while i suffer like quite a lot... haiz

i don't know why

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2007-01-02T15:51:00.000+08:00

yay 2007, school is going to start tomorrow! cheers! WOOTS!!!

whoa the holidays became so dreadful to me, hehe, but at least got a whole period of time to be in inertia, but now it's time to release it. hehe, neutral feelings.

oopz i have left blogskins.com! don't wanna talk about it though. :) whatever they say, i am scared etc, i can't be bothered by now

but i still keep my designs, so i've set up this blog called "Jeremy's Designs" at http://jeremydesigns.blogspot.com/ lol! it's trilingual! oh but who cares? please feel free to browse around and comment about the skins. of course you can use the skins if it's up to your standard.

if you want to go to that blog to create chaos, i suggest you should spend your time in some meaningful activities like blogging or volunteering or socializing. :)

lol let me tell you a joke that happened in my cell group. lol! we were playing with our cell group member's piano and suddenly my friend came out and said, "i know how to play 安静" yeah, so we thought of Jay Chou's 安静. so he came to the front of the piano, and we gave him some encouragements while everyone stood there awaiting for the performance.
but he stood there and did nothing. then i said, "oh, 安静, quiet performance" while everybody laughed. but probably he shy or didn't have mental preparation, did he deliberately joke about that? lol, 安静, silent!! hahahahahahaa! =.= i know it's lame =X

err, i think that's all. wait, PLEASE TAG MY DESIGNS BLOG! DON'T FORGET TO DO SO, OR I'LL ... do nothing :) lol!

what a small world!

2006-12-29T19:14:00.000+08:00

i have just come back from this trip:

Going to Commonwealth Secondary School to take the request for transfer letter.
Going to Fuhua Secondary School to give the letter to the Vice Principal for him to acknowledge and sign.
Going to Commonwealth Secondary School to give the letter back to the school.

lol, that was tiring......

when i was in bus along the way to fuhua, i saw mr peter goh and his "sworn"-brothers (one of them i could see was Samuel) going back from the garden opposite Lakeside Pri, i thought they had a basketball game since sam was holding on a basketball. mr goh's eyes are superb, he could see me from far! lol!

so i met the vice prinicpal of fuhua. lol, he was asking me, "why, fuhua no good ah?" lol! was very embarrassed but of course he did give me some face, just told him that the destination of CSS was convenient for me to travel to, and very expectant to go to CSS too. so at last he signed and i went back to Commonwealth again.

along the way saw hao gen my friend running on the pedestrian streets, but he didn't notice me since he was having great fun lol. and in the bus, surprisingly i met audrey with her grandma, lolz! then i alighted and took the number 30.

lalala @ weirong i still do not know my class sadly >(

yay at last home!

OH MY GOD! APPEAL SUCCESSFUL!!!

2006-12-29T14:47:00.000+08:00

YAY! I AM IN COMMONWEALTH! HAPPIEST MOMENT OF MY LIFE!

yay, i am going to commonwealth secondary school. oh my God! i can't picture this! it's so indescribable!

but, to that person who tagged as 09 14 in my tagboard (i've deleted your tags):

if you dare to say what you said in the forums, you should also dare to have your sayings there reported anywhere. this is my blog, i can say whatever i want. and you were the one who insulted me first, you deserve to have your actions known here. i don't have the time to fight with you and debate with you etc. if you're not happy, please don't tag, you're wasting your precious time, leave, period.

depressed again

2006-12-29T11:28:00.000+08:00

haiz not sure why i get so emotional again...

yesterday, i was reminded of my dreadful past again;
today, i felt so stupid;
everyday, i am wearing a mask, showing that i am happy, but when i remove my mask, you will see how painful and sinful i am.

i seriously have nothing to blog except this.

ok i admit i am NOT crying now. lol! that is so weird. now i am trying to make myself happy, haiz.

少し狂った、少し愚かな。愚かな私を欲しいじゃない、新しい私を待っている
sukoshi kurutta, sukoshi orokana. orokana watashi o hoshii janai, atarashii watashi o matteiru.

i am spiritual!!!

2006-12-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

lol, someone visited my blog called me spiritual!!! lol, 过奖过奖...... again another exaggeration.

hmm i don't really have something so much to blog about.

ahhh end of year is nigh and i still haven't not known which school i am going to. commonwealth or fuhua? till now commonwealth haven't given me a reply whether i am entering that school or not. i haven't bought the books and uniform!!!

lol just now i am so embarrassed! went to buy my dinner.

Jeremy gives a crumpled $2 note to the vendor.
Vendor: 这是钱咧！
Jeremy: 呃……对啊！[Confused]
Vendor: 要爱护它！
Jeremy: 呃……对对对。[Embarrassed]
Vendor: 添抱你肚子的咧。
Jeremy: 对对对对对。谢谢
Jeremy leaves.

LOL! lallalalalalalala...... i think that's all. =X

i was so harsh in the forums! lol!

2006-12-27T20:11:00.000+08:00

http://www.blogskins.com/forum/1/25921/

read that thread if you're free. oh my God i was so harsh to defend me and skin designer, in turn i was insulted. haiz. actually, i don't really mind if they aren't happy with my opinions, but what i am angry with is how they insulted me and my knowledge......

tell me guys, how is this skin? http://blogskins.com/info/125740

it looks nice, right? but sadly some people doesn't appreciate it and are jealous of such skins getting the Skin Of The Day......

those people call it a brush-spammed skin.

they think that such brush-spammed skins are effortless and shouldn't deserve an SOTD.

but brush-spammed things can produce either beauty or a mess, such skins produce a beauty. sadly some people just don't appreciate it. when those kind of skins get the SOTD, they aren't happy that their skins aren't noticed in some ways.

let's not talk about that point, the insulting part:

i replied this:

hmm honestly i dun like how u guys talk about their skin. ok for the 2nd skin if its really ripped i of course think that it shouldnt be getting SOTD.

but for the first skin, it's quite nice right? ok though it's just placing some brushwork, but at least it has portrayed its beauty from its result of "splashing all kinds of brushes" right?

though it might appear effortless, but i am sure the skin has its own beauty from its so-called "brush-spamming". u guyz have to learn appreciating some kinds of appear-to-be-effortless skins. dun think according to ur story.

and we dun wan to make the internet a cruel place, but by talking about that skin so negatively u are hurting the blogskinner of it. let's just appreciate all kinds of skins, even if u guys dun appreciate it there's no need for publicly talking about it.

ok, sorry if u are offended, but i hope that u guys will understand, its not really nice of u to do this.

someone replied:

Also, all skinners should learn to accept criticisms, no matter how much it hurts, because not everyone are blind retards who will rate all skins 5 stars. I do not feel the need to appreciate SKINS THAT ARE LIKE SHIT, skins that even 3-year-olds can do with Photoshop and a mouse. The reason why I brought this up in the forums is because I knew there would be people who agree that those skins are most undeserving of SOTD.

I don't know what sort of happiness you'll get for standing up for those lousy SOTDs, but don't act so kind and noble or whatever, I don't buy it.

i am just stating my opinions, yet they thought i acted kind or noble. =.=

another reply:

i doubt a 12-year-old like you knows anything about these shitty skins.

there is nothing wrong with brushes, but when there is an overdose (aka brush spam) it becomes just so bloody messy, complicated and nonetheless UGLY.

the reason why you're defending her? i have no idea but from my inference about how you asked me about stupid password protection scripts and to infer from your avatar, the reason why you're defending her is just because you can't do any better either.

please, grow up. just open your eyes and take a look at the older sotds for the previous months, and just take a look at how these standards have become.

no big deal if my avatar picture is childish, and no big deal if i ask a stupid question, that doesn't fully explain my so-called great stupidity.

another reply:

you're not acting noble or kind. you're behaving like your shoe size and apparently you have just stated out invalid arguments. i don't think you're acting kind and noble. i think you're acting like a twerp. oh sorry, you're one.

accept contradicts? what the hell are you talking about? please go check your dictionary and take a look. you're like maybe contradicting yourself, and did you mean to use CRITICISMS?

debating with you in msn has wasted me part of my life. go brush up your skills, i think you'll fail compositions for straying off topics. one side we're comparing efforts and suddenly you jump to sotd for no reason. twat.

lalalalalala, who cares? they are just... oh indescribable =.=

and yeah, oh my God just now it was so frustrating. i can't surf the Internet and sign in MSN Messenger! only when i went for the IT Club Trial in Commonwealth Secondary, when those teachers there were complaining about the internet access, and saying that the earthquake in Taiwan affected our internet access, i then realised that i have wasted part of my life attempting to fix the internet access =.=

yeah, about the IT Club Trial, i made a picture in Photoshop, about a moon and a poem below. it's titled: The Wonder of Nature - The Moon.

The streets were empty,
The shops were closed.
I was sitting on the roadside,
Reminiscing the past memories we had there.
Though everything was gone,
Something remained.
I looked up in the sky,
Yes, it was the Moon,
The one which brightened up the dark sky,
The one which accompanied me through the lonely and dreadful night......

Above that poem I designed a moon too. Arghhz lol, hope it can pass. bros and sis' in Christ please pray for me, I'll get the reply soon in a day or two.

lol i know the poem is kind of weird, but i didn't really have much time. i tell you, if the earthquake did not happen, i could have searched the internet for the tutorials regarding on the moon! but luckily i could recall the tutorial a little bit, i knew that i could do better if the internet was ok. arhhh, nature is not wonderful!! blame the nature for that earthquake!! LOL! =.=

back from fuhua secondary

2006-12-26T16:25:00.000+08:00

lol ok i am back from fuhua secondary, went there just for one thing: to submit the higher mother tongue option form.

OH MY GOD, I WILL BE GOING FOR HIGHER MOTHER TONGUE LESSONS!

ok that was some kind of overreaction lol. i don't know if i made the right decision, but my parents want me to attend.

tomorrow is the IT Club trial @ commonwealth sec. uh oh, they were supposed to call me today to tell me what time should i go tomorrow. but, till now (4.40pm) they have not called, by 5 pm if they've not called I'll be calling the school. LOL

and shucks! just now it was raining. when i was going to Fuhua Secondary, while waiting to cross, in front of me was a puddle of water. then this giant SBS bus drove past it and splashed that puddle of water to my whole body! and i was wet. !!!!!!

regarding that matter yesterday, i almost forgot it. the problem that the computer malfunctioned was that the button was stuck...... so now my father plucked out to metallic cover of the button and now i need to press the internal button. but that's not what i am unhappy over. i was blamed for another not-my-fault case again, and my mum just gave me that not-to-be-bothered attitude on her face, not even an apologetic attitude was shown, even when the problem was told.

haiz, i think that's all for this post.

an unhappy Christmas......

2006-12-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

i had a very unhappy Christmas...... haiz i felt so bored, so lonely, so... haiz ok i admit that i am almost shedding tears.

somehow i am destined to have bad days for public holidays. i remembered having a cold war with my mum on Mothers' Day, i remember being scolded on Christmas, i remembered crying over why i always have a bad day for holidays on my bed also on Christmas.

i have always been incriminated (wu1 lai4) for many things that i am innocent in.

my mother replied a very hurtful-to-me sentence when i told her that i've been incriminated for many things:

but it's the truth

i have many reasons why i am always communicating on MSN, almost 24/7.

1. why do i communicate on MSN so often?
because my parents do not have time to care about me, talk with me

2. why do i always communicate on the phone with my friends, even with females?
because, since you're not happy that i am always chatting on MSN, i've decided to talk on the phone sometimes. i need to talk to my friends because i don't have a chance to talk to you.

and what's wrong with communicating with females, it doesn't necessarily mean that i am courting or something, right?

i went out with my parents to IMM, i felt so lonely, so left out, i had nothing to do, nothing to be engrossed in, nothing.

i really envy people like audrey, she received a hug from her mother just 12 am of Christmas. she received presents from her friends and her mother is going to give her something. me? i celebrated it with my beloved friends on MSN, i received no presents.

i admit i am crying now, really...... i just went to the study room when my mum complained that the computer malfunctioned when she started Excel. she thought i did something to the computer to prevent her from doing her work. i don't know WHY. I DON'T KNOW WHY ARE ALL THESE HAPPENING TO ME, I AM ALWAYS BLAMED FOR EVERYTHING. WHY IS THAT SO?! I WANT TO LIVE A HAPPY LIFE BUT THINGS JUST ALWAYS GO WRONG. GOD! I DON'T WANT TO SUFFER LIKE THIS ANYMORE! WHY ARE YOU GIVING ME SUCH A LIFE?! WHY CAN'T I CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTH AND NOT SUFFER EMOTIONALLY? ARE YOU GIVING ME ETERNAL PUNISHMENT ON EARTH? GOD!! SAVE ME. WHY ARE YOU GIVING ME SUCH A DAY ON CHRISTMAS DAY?!

i feel so.. helpless~~~~~~~~

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

2006-12-25T00:58:00.000+08:00

hi guys out there! merry Christmas!

had a fun time in the Christmas church service. LOL! THE DRAMA WAS HILARIOUS! it mixed contemporary and the Jerusalem times. it was about Mary having the Child of God in her womb - Jesus Christ. so people thought it was fake and can't be true, so many people doubted it, "how can someone be having the Messiah in her womb?!"

so there was a "TV Channel" called "CNNN" at the Jerusalem Times, investigating about the matter of Mary having the Child of God. there was "live broadcast" from the stable where Jesus was going to be born.

LOL the funniest was the three kings who came to the stable and bowed to the baby Child of God, and gave treasures i think? lol, arghz i don't read the Bible regularly, T.T . the three kings were the Chinese king, Indian King, and Japanese king, lol, and all of them spoke Cantonese (like how those opera singers do in the cantonese opera. lol it was hilarious!), spoke Tamil (okay... lol), and spoke Japanese ("hai! wakarimasu!" LOL!) so the entire process was very very funny.

but there were also parts where it's very emotional and sad. err i think i won't drone on about that, it doesn't look funny from how i said.

so the whole drama ended with when Jesus was born, we sang the carol "Silent Night" since the drama ended with the night when Jesus was born. and we lighted up our candles.

my friend Caleb missed the candlelight session as he went to the toilet, according to him, his reason was, "i drank too much water in the morning" lolz. after the service he went again. i suspected he had a stomachache, and told him after the service, "aiya don't paiseh lah, having a stomachache is not something to be ashamed of, urh??" LOL, i was so mischievous for that!

errr... what more can i blog about?

oh yeah, talking about Christmas, presents...... WEHHHH!!!

Tangible Presents Received:
0 (Zero)
Intangible Presents Received:
0 (Zero)
The Perfect Present Received:
1 (One) - Happened 2000 years ago on the Cross, Jesus Christ died for us.

audrey told me she received THREE Christmas gifts and called herself "pathetic" errm??? xD, so good!!

errr... i think that's all? nights!

interview in commonwealth sec

2006-12-22T17:13:00.000+08:00

ARHHHHHHH I CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE. CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHY ARE ALL THESE HAPPENING?!

it was only an interview in commonwealth sec, yet my parents can fight with me so much.

firstly, it's my mum:

first to tell you, my mum is someone who is very impatient and can blow her top anytime. she can be very angry if she doesn't find something that she has been finding for a "short" time.
this afternoon, i was getting ready to go for the interview in commonwealth sec, and outside my house while i was walking towards the elevators, i realised i was wearing slippers. so i told my mum that i am going back to wear a pair of shoes.

when i came down to the bus stop, she was always frowning and complaining about the taxis which all are hired that drove past us, she was obviously angry over me, saying that when i was wearing the shoes many vacant taxis drove past, and she complained about me, pushing every blame to me.

i really can't stand this anymore, i've been holding my temper not to fight with them, except that time, i can't be bothered to hold my temper, i just shouted to her, "if you're not happy then don't bring me!" some people heard it, but i can't be bothered. and she wasn't happy again.

secondly my father. at first when commonwealth sec called me and that lady on the phone told me about the interview, she told me that I COULD GO ALONE. i would like that. but my mum wants my father to send me and go for the interview too. orh man i just want to be in the interview by myself, i don't want people to "barge in". and i was very upset when my father said that i was stubborn as THE SCHOOL TOLD HIM THAT PARENTS MUST COME.
weird? and again, all the blame was pushed to me, while i was so innocent. i also raised my voice on the line with my father that THE LADY SAID THAT I CAN GO ALONE.

and true enough, from when we stepped in the school, and when we stepped out the school, i didn't find the need for the parents to come. haiz

if my parents really want me to go to commonwealth, and are willing to fight for a vacancy, why are they giving me such attitudes? everytime is work, work, work. if work is everything to you, WHY DO YOU WANT TO SEND ME TO A SECONDARY SCHOOL WHEN YOU GUYS JUST CAN'T BE BOTHERED EVERYTIME? apparently they are so unwilling about all these.

last time i remembered being kicked and hit on the floor by my mother when she realised something was wrong with the computer. actually, the problem was just the version of the software she needed to use, so she couldn't find the buttons she learnt about. and just because of that, since WORK IS (not was) EVERYTHING TO HER, she got so fed up and abused me like never before. i'll never forget that moment.

i remembered in taiwan, she was finding her shoes and blamed me again for everything "i" did, by "accidentally" pushing the shoes to the bottom of the bed. and again, i was blamed when i was totally innocent and i didn't push that pair of shoes to under the bed.

but what can we, children, do? the best is just complaining among ourselves, including puikay, audrey, cuiling who all experienced unfairness from the illiberal human beings.

the Bible says in the fourth commandment to honour our fathers and mothers. but how and why do i honour my father when he's not a Christian and don't want to know Christ? how and why do i honour my mother when i experienced unfairness from her? i'm not compromising God's word, but honestly i don't know the exact action that i should do. it's not fair for me to always apologise when they didn't apologise for what they've done. i'll always apologise if i really did something wrong, but I KNOW I NEVER DID FOR SUCH SITUATIONS.

but actually we automatically forgive each other, however the devil just keep putting fights for us to experience, and i believe in the future there'll be a number more of fights for me to experience. they are, so UNREASONABLE!

haizz... i really don't want to fight or sin days before Christmas~

fuhua secondary

2006-12-22T11:08:00.000+08:00

had just come back from fuhua secondary orientation... not bad, just that the slides and speech were =.= boring. it just droned on and on and on.

was kinda surprised when the emcee on stage can emphasize so much on the word "thank", the "th" sound became "t" sound, and he even went to emphasize that "t" sound...

ok but who cares? the whole process was really kinda boring =.=

ahh i am still in high hopes of getting into commonwealth sec, reply reply!! quick!! i can't wait for a yes =.=

hmm should i take up higher mother tongue? i am kinda in a dilemma about this, i heard it's out of the curriculum time. orh man!

lolz i miss children's church!! so i am proceeding to jurong west city harvest church for the children's service (Christmas) i am bored at home, sianz!! so i rather go out and do something. i'll blog again later, maybe, if i do have something to blog about. buhbye.

to the person who i dislike taggin in my blog

2006-12-22T01:14:00.000+08:00

ok if you are reading this, please read on. i am kind enough not to name you.

you were the one who made my life so bitter. i don't want to hate you, but i don't want you to interfere with my life, and my friends' too.

so, i really wish that we can eliminate all grudges away and we will lead our very own lives. we can still chat a little on MSN, i will not ignore you like i did before. but can we please chat as if we have all forgotten the past grudges?

if you want to tag my blog, fine, you can, but stop talking about things that i do not mention in my posts or recent tags, especially things that talk about the past grudges.

ok i am sorry if what i said "i don't recognise you" may hurt your feelings or you're not happy with it or etc, but can we just don't bring up any past grudges?

can you don't tag unnecessary things? i don't mind if you tag "nice skin" etc, but just don't talk about past grudges? can we? deal?

i believe by doing this, it is a win-win situation, you do not need to be so angry about the past, we don't need to fight with you. isn't it fair? can we try this?

i hope you also can do so to my other friends like puikay audrey etc.

just don't bring up any of the past grudges. yup?

just reply a yes through my tagboard.

doing so doesn't mean i'll take it i haven't know you, but i'll not ignore you, i'll still be relating with you, unless you still want to bring up the past.

ok that person, thank you for your time to read this, i really hope you can accept the deal.

friends, please do not post in ur blog or tag anything negative about what i say here. thanks a lot.

christmas celebrations @ community ctr

2006-12-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

had just come back from the community center's Christmas celebrations. was with wei kiat idling around the CC.

it was kinda boring~ =X lolz. except for Paul Twohill's performance (ok puikay don't get excited), not too shabby, but needless to say it's more entertaining than those choirs or dancers singing or dancing along with the carols, ahhh... i rather hear them on the CDs. =X

we were standing beside the stage watching the performance, and suddenly weikiat went "eh, paul behind you!!" my heart said, "oh my God..." lolz and i saw him walking away, woah~ lolz by that point of time i told puikay about it, but she did not seem to believe it, i replied her that it was REAL!!

so puikay, i've taken some photos of him, prepare to get crazy!!!

Paul sang with another Christian man (apparent from his neck-cross) guitar-accompanying on stage, i am not sure of his name.....

puikay, believe it? poor thing, she can't go, perhaps disallowed by her mum. haizz

and we were idling around in the snacks corner eating some chicken strips, when we were going down, weikiat saw paul taking photos with other people and autographing. wei kiat was so excited that he shouted out loud like mad... errr =.='" and we ran down like mad to that corner where paul was. phew, paul was almost going off, so weikiat took a pic with him and the other accompanying guy

lol honestly, paul looks kinda weird in this pic. and weikiat, SMILE!! for people who don't know who is paul, he is the second from the left (and right too)

and when paul walk past us, weikiat said a sweet "byebye", he sounded so act-cute! oh my God, and Paul was laughing as a reply.

i smsed puikay about it, "you really missed a chance to take a photo with paul and get autograph, my friend took a photo with him.."

puikay replied that she was really very unlucky and "suay"...... haiz, accept your fate.. lol

after all, i managed to kill some boredom at home. yay! arghz why did the MOE set the reporting time as 8.30 am tomorrow?! it's so early! i hate it i hate it.

haiz, hope i will manage to get in commonwealth though. >.<

appeal to commonwealth sec sch

2006-12-21T18:08:00.000+08:00

hmm i am posted to fuhua secondary school. not quite happy but i am still ok with it. however, my father isn't, he want me to go to commonwealth.

so we went to commonwealth sec and gave the appeal form. hmm its premises are kinda new and nice, but not all are ready.

and we went back home, in the car he was kinda unhappy about us appealing to the school. he said something like that:

other people are choosing schools, we are now being choosed by people, why can't you get a few more marks? you know by doing this is very "sianz" leh......

i don't like the attitude he held while appealing. he thinks that it is a face-loss to do so. and obviously he isn't happy with my results.

i've done my very best, what more do you expect?

now he says that fuhua secondary is kinda far. =.= when i gave him my choices, he said everything was OKAY. now, he says that fuhua is far?!

parents are like that, they will not dare to lose face, and their expections are always getting high and high. they can't be satisfied. haizz...... honestly i rather not appeal, than to see unwillingness.

oh but who cares? now, i have appealed. i really wish to enter commonwealth, otherwise i am ok too. anyway, please help me pray before i get the reply from the school.

oh yeah, lolz, i haven't talk about my new skin. yup this is the skin i did last night and this afternoon. i find it nice (lol), with the help of the brushes. when i use the brushes, and i saw the result, i went "oh my God", it works wonders!

i am also going to upload this skin to Blogskins.com. ok i think that's all. bye...